eins. why?

eins <333. as you all know, i'm obsess with him. yea yea. i know. as if it's a big deal. but recently, i don't know why it makes me sad. day by day, i feel like we're getting closer yet so far away. gosh. this is so not me. i mean, confessing? you have got to be kidding me. that'll be the last thing on earth i'm going to do if i like someone. seriously. the fact that i have to watch him from far--totally pathetic! but can i have him? this question always always always on my mind. i'm scared to know the answer. yet i think i know the answer. I CAN'T HAVE HIM! so i can't do this. totally. being rejected?! NOOOO! i can't imagine how it feels like. damn it! falling in love ain't that wonderful after all. being hurt and all. suck! looking at him makes me happy yet frustrating. sweating. haha. barigali. butterflies in my tummy, man! i can't do things correctly if he's near me. so basically, he's the reason why i fail. no big thing though. life isn't perfect. so do i. i ain't perfect. he isn't either. but for some reason, i think he is.. eventhough it's obvious that he isn't. complicated, huh? imagine if you're in my shoes. TIDAKKKK! diew masalah sa' ehh. kau suka ta' nyieh tuno tuno. ndieh kau mekebieang tieh.

I was thinking about quiting my job

Sometimes, I can't stand the situation I'm in. The fact that my job requires patience and everything makes me sick. My job is so jobless. Sitting for over an hour or more--totally makes me sick. Sleepy? Yea. It happens--everytime! Nothing is right. Lots of customers, trouble us. Gotta be in 2 or more places at a time. No customer, trouble us, too. Gotta make money for a living. I mean, yea. I need experience since this is my first job. But, it's not like how I imagined it. It's boring. But then, have to holding on. This is not for forever.

two days and one night camping

this was my first time camping. so as usual, I was over excited thinking that we're going to Rampayoh just like what Abas said. but, to my surprise, we camp at school. so I was like whattheheck?! where's Rampayoh?! dorn. I was kinda feeling down. yet, I had so much fun. meeting new friends. but still, my monkeys are my very very bestfriend. mus, jangan nangis ahh. ingat ku masih kan kau ni. and we get to get together to play games. we played james bond, raja lipan, bom and many more. of all the games, I love james bond the most. it was superb fun. won twice. terer aku tu. bang bang! haha. and um we get to act. but there are things I hate. first, the superb annoying ABAS! he was in my team. I was the leader, so I gotta be strict. but then, ABAS was so bangang. he gets on my nerves everytime he's near me. eyeaching to see him near me. heartaching because of his bangangness. it's annoying! grrr. and everytime we play games that required playing individually, he lost. I repeat, HE LOST! goddamnit. why?! why was he on my team?! huh. and second, the superb annoying 'o-pairs' they flirt with the boys. so -called-lawa. hahah. I was like 'ohmigod. lawa? am I seeing different people?' they can easily be found near boys. I repeat again, NEAR BOYS! then, she brought a guitar for the boys. so I can be bad sometimes. I borrowed her guitar once in a while and she gave me this mean look. showing how much she didn't want me to play her guitar. haha. annoying. and I was being sarcastic everytime she talked to me so I can shut her up. she talked nonsense and I don't do nonsense talking. means, I ignore someone who talks nonsense. but overall, the camping was fun. ohh ohh. and um our team is called underbelly. and our trademark was
'we may be small,
but some are big,
you should see we role,
till we come back.'
and pantun I made..
'bangun pagi, gosok gigi,
liat luar, berburung murai,
camping cemani, siiiukkk ni,
tapi sayangnya tepaksa besurai'
and I wrote all the lines for acting eventhough it didn't turn out pretty well. THANKS TO ABAS for his spoilness! gosh.

Argh. This is driving me mad!

Right now. I'm in a nearby restaurant. Waiting for my kolo mee. Just now, Imran went to the mosque for the Jumaat prayer. And then, he went back. Asking me if I've had my lunch. So I told him no I haven't and then, he gave me $4 and yes I have my own money. But I prefer 'rezeki jangan ditolak' and then the money fell.. And he said 'alai. kamu kerja tidak lurus bah. kamu malas bah.' so I was like 'whatthefuck! what job?! i did my job pretty well before you hired me! I did follow customers all around. State the
prices and everything. By which I meant EVERYTHING! FRIGGIN EVERYTHING! whatthefuck! as if I'm lazy like a bitch who tries to sharpen her tits! duhh.
Well, I did ignore some customers who tend to be there just so they can see how pathetic I am working there! And I use handphone sometimes. He was the one who told me that it's okay. Wait. kolo mee ku datang. makan sekajap ahh.. okay. sudah.. Alhamdulillah. kanyang jua ku. bah! Back to my story. And um sometimes I read story books. His brother was the one who told me to read while waiting for the customer. And I do organize the unorganized. Duhh~ so calling me 'pemalas' is totally unacceptable. totally.

Another dream I had

It's the same dream. But, different plot, different characters, different everything. What remained the same are me and eins. humph. and mom---trying to wake me up as usual. Okay. In my dream.....eins and I had a huge fight. And blablabla. He sat behind me and put his hands on my shoulder and I was about to turn around and "dek.... kan pukul 8 sudah tu. inda kau keraja ka?" again! "Mehhhh.... aku kan sambung mimpi ku bah." huh. Whyyyyyy?!! Everytime wohh..!

I'm tired of this shit.

ohmigod. I am so missing the time when electricity was cut off here (my work). Right now, I can't concentrate on my reading due to some friggin old, dangdut and lame songs here and there. Everywhere, man! But just now, when I was replying some text on the chatbox, I heard 'ohh.. ratu ku Azizah~' so I was like, "wait a minute. I'm replying zaza's texts. this is awkward"
I am so hungry! Dorn! Mom bought nasi katok for me and brought it here. But no spoon! How am I suppose to eat it exactly? I ain't gonna eat with hand. I'm in a middle of a public building where people are walking all around me. Totally not me. Embarrassing. It's almost midday which leaves me holding on. Trying to figure out how to eat it! Should I hide and eat it? Haha. Freak, dude!

I'm declaring a war with the cockroaches!

ohmigod. cockroaches! dorn. where'd they come from?! eewwww. first, it flew above us, so it was driving all of us crazy, then, it settled at my grandma's door. I was planning to hit it with newspaper. but then, mom said that it'll be smelly and she decided to spray it with sheltox. so I was like "it'll drive it crazy which means, it'll drive us crazy, too, to see a friggin' insect flying over our head!" took a very long time to suggest which way is better. the cockroaches flew while we still discuss about it. then, I asked my uncle where'd it go. and he pointed at my short and said it out loud. "tuuu! arah SELUAR mu!" at first, it's kinda hard to trust what he said since people uses the same 'it's on your trousers.' excuse to tease other. back to my story. well, after that, I looked at my short and noticed it was there and went all panic and BAAAAAAM! hit by me! haha. with newspaper. DEAD!
then, second time was when I was carrying a glass of super hot water and bzzzz... "what the hell is" then, it stopped by to count my bulu tangan. and 'aaaaaaa! meh.. help me.' since I was panicking over a simple problem, I accidentally let go of the glass. so the hot water spilled over my hand. ouch! didn't see that one coming!

eins <333

The last post I posted about him was about my confession. Instead of telling him that, I told you guys.
It's pathetic though. But at least, I can speak my heart out! Right?
I used to write his name here and there. Everywhere. Not his real name, actually. Just the way it's pronounced which is a word. But then, once, he used his name (the way it is pronounced) for his display name, I went panic and start surfing the internet to search for other word to used that has the same meaning with the way it is pronounced. That was when I thought he knew that I like him. Dorn! So I was like "Noooo...! He knew it! Will he ever text me again?" but then, I started to realize that he didn't. Or he did but pretend like he didn't. I'm afraid of being rejected. Well, not that weak type of afraid. I just don't get it, you know. Everytime a person proposed, I tend to reject them. It's not like we'll be together forever. Maybe we will but then, I'm lacking of confidence. So I started to think about all the negative things. But, one thing for sure.. I'll wait for eins<333. And I'll stop if he tells me that he never wish more than friends relationship between us.
I'm not good at this love thingy. Yet, I'm pretty good at solving others' problems. I'm the middle person who solves others' problems but tend to worsten my own problems. But once, I helped a friend of mine. I'm not quite sure if it is a friend of mine or WAS a friend of mine. She was tooooo obsess with her boyfriend. Or should I say EX-boyfriend. That was until he left her. She seeked for my help. But then, she accused me for having a relationship with him and backstabbing her. Well, the real story is that her boyfriend was the one who was so friggin irritating. Forcing me to be his.. And he told me that he's willing to leave his girlfriend which at that time, they were together.. Again. He broke up with her more than 5times just to show me that he loves me. I blame both of them. The girlfriend for being stupid. And the boyfriend, too. I think she still hates me for what had happen. We talk sometimes, but then, remind me not to tell her anything. And by anything, I mean, ANYTHING. EVERYTHING!
Back to my story, eins<333. I want him. Really. But then, I don't have guts to tell him that.. Huh. It's pretty easy if it is to be done in a dream but the outcomes are in a real world.. I want him to notice me. To realize that he means a lot to me. His attentions that I need. But, yea, they're just hope. wish.. Huh. Now I sound so dramatic..

someone I used to know.

Sherwin De Rueda. We had this wonderful brother & sister relationship. Too bad it didn't last forever for he had to go back to his country 'cause his grandma longed to see him. It's sad that I never had a chance to say good bye. He left about 4 to 5 years ago. Yet, I still remember everything. I miss him.

todayyyy.

First, Happy Birthday to my uncle. And congratulations to my oldest cousin who just got married today.
Anyway, I skipped my work today. Without telling the boss that I'm not going to come. I'm tooooooooo lazy. It's tiring.
eins <333~ where'd you go? gilaa kali.. batah ku menunggu. huh.
well, kinda blank right now. so, bye i guess.

tagged!

tagged by Qirah.

001. Name → can't remember. haven't check out my i.c for ages.
004. Zodiac sign → sorry. I'm not an astrologist.
005. Male or female → shemale?
006. Elementary → element? yes! I love science. LOL!
007. Middle School → yes. middle of nowhere.
008. High School → very high. tingkat 3. haha.
009. College School → err i don't know.
010. Hair color → rainbow.
011. Long or short → very long but short.
012. Loud or Quiet → loud when quiet.
013. Sweats or Jeans → sweating jeans.
014. Phone or Camera → phones with camera.
015. Health freak → jangan menyindir wa! apakan ni?!
016. Drink or Smoke? → yes. minum masa menunu rumput karing which gives out lots of smoke.
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → wow. who told you that? eins <333
018. Eat or Drink → dreat?
019. Piercings → yesss. kenapakan?
020. Tattoos → haha. inda dapat~ beside, i don't want one.

First:
023. First piercing → busybody.. shhh~
024. First best friend → mom!
025. First award → award kuat tidur.
026. First crush → antah ehh. I was immature back then. duuh~
027. First pet → nemo. a cat. hehe.
028. First big vacation → KL.
030. First big birthday → can't remember.

Currently:
049. Eating → nope.
050. Drinking → huh. saliva maybe.
052. I'm about to → i don't know.
053. Listening to → sound.
054. Plans for today → malam sudah ni. tidur~~
055. Waiting for → eins <333

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → yes. lots and lots of kids.
059. Want to get married? → heheh. tatap tu!
060. Careers in mind → successful one.

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → everything!
070. Shorter or taller? → which part are you talking about?
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both bah!
074. Sensitive or loud → do I have a choice?
075. Hook-up or relationship → ahh? apakan? I'm into a serious relationship kalii ahh.
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → antah.

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → what do you care? it's not like you're going to help me searching. duuh~
081. Ran away from home → indaa ehh. I'm a GOOD girl.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → a stick. once. haha.
083. Killed somebody → in a game. I'm bad!
084. Broken someone's heart → always.
085. Been arrested → inda ehh. gila kali!
087. Cried when someone died → huh. why do you have to ask?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → sometimes.
090. Miracles → yes.
091. Love at first sight → used to.
092. Heaven → yes.
093. Santa Claus → sandy claw?
094. Tooth Fairy → inda ehh. tooth fairy is freaking the hell outta me!
095. Kiss on the first date → huh? your point?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes. my family. eins <333. my monkeys.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → um err yes?
099. Do you believe in God → awu ehh.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people → linkers.

A dream I had

I slept pretty late last night. After eins told me he wants to sleep, I decided to call it a day. And sleep! Zzz. I had this dream about eins.. I was text messaging with him. Blablabla. Then, he said "mira. if you wanna tell me what your heart wants to say, speak out. I know how you feel about me. I'm okay with that." so I replied "what?! Who told you that?!" he smiled. And I was about to confess "eins.. Actually, I......." "Dek! Wake up. Its 8 o clock. You need to go to work.." for a moment, mom was in my dream as well. Trying to wake me up. I slept like a log. But then, "noooooo! I was about to confess, mom! Whyyyyyy...?!" I screamed inside my head. haha. dorn. Imagine if mom didn't wake me up. gosh. I'd probably jumping of the roof if we were on a relationship. huh. spoiled! eins~

Karate lesson

Congratulations to Mustaqim for winning his first sparring! Haha. He was soooo kuat! *yuckptui* nada la mus. Si mus manang saja time sparring tadi. Eseh. Handal ehh. Haha. His sparring partner was Wan.. *kiraikirai* heheh. He tried his best. Si mus manakan inda manang tadi, ia pakai muay thai. Kan mus? Jangan kau antam ia mus ahh. Jaga kau! Haha. We learnt the new kata. um haiyan shidan kaa namanya? A bit different than kyong kata. Lurus ka namanya tuu? But fun anyway. Hahah. You know, I wish, aku dapat sparring sama the girl version of TRIPLE H! Muahahaha!! Dorn! I was being hyper just now. Took some pills to regain my energy since I'm working and everything. Earlier masa ku makan pill tu, my lips were numb. And my body was shaking berabis. Yet, I didn't feel tired. Banar~ over effect pill ahh.

Talk fight with a sehhtuupid customer

Argh. An old man got on my nerves just now! Dorn! This old man, came and asked "berapa harga ayat diluar tu?"
but looked at somewhere else as if he was asking someone else. And then,he used a mean tone asking me the same question.
So I answered "yang mana?"
since there are around 5 ayat out there. But he didn't answer. He went inside to the ayat section.
Then, I asked him "ayat yang basar cemani ka?"
then, he said "yang diluar atu bah!"
then, I replied "yatah! Aku betanya yang mana satu!"
I went out to see which one was he talking about.
Then "yang ani bah! Basar ani!"
and I said "antah ahh. Nada kana tulis harganya."
he said "yata berapa harganya?!"
then, I noticed that the ayat is labelled with 'SOLD'
so I told him "SOLD jua tu..!"
but then, he was babal-ing asking me "jadi?! berapa kan harganya ni?! Ayat ani bah."
I said "yata. SOLD sudah."
he said "berapa harganya?!"
I replied "antah baaaaah! Owner nya nadaaaaaaaa! Inda ku tau harganyaaaaaaa! Lagipun SOLD sudaaaaaah!"
then he said "inda tau harga?! Cemana kan kamu bejual ani?!" and he mumbled around.
And I said "telampau jua urang tua ani!"
Babal! Sudah jua dibagitau! Shit ehh! Argh. Rasa kan ku antam bah. Banar tah. Kasar kasar! Peluiii...!!

PUHHLEEESS! I need a day off!

God! I am so so so tired. And so so so not into working right now. All day long. Every single day. I've been sitting on this chair. Warming my ass and typing my handphone which I'm sure the Pakistan brothers are annoyed by me. How boring can this be? I wish I've received my salary. My very first salary. Then, Im going to hangout with my monkeys! My treat. No worries guys. But, I hope eins wants to go out with me. Told him I'm going to belanja him arah pizza hut. Where would be a romantic place to go to on a first date ehh? A so-called-date actually. Beside, pizza hut is like, 50 steps from my place of work. Haha. eins eins eins. I wish you knew about it. Yet, for a moment, I wish you wouldn't know. It's like, I want to but I don't want to. Huh. eins~ Will you accept me for being me? *dramatic!* But will you? hehh? *kiraikirai* You are like the
perfect verson of imperfect human being. You're cold. Yet you're funny. eins <333

guess who I met yesterday

after several weeks... i met AZIMIN! haha. haven't seen him for quite some time. i think he's taller than before. melangui jua kepala meliat ia. when i say him yesterday, aku cover mua ku.. pakai tangan! pfft. sekalur. panic wa. yata macam omg. apa kan dibuat ni?! haha. then, ia dengani aku bali red bull. i need energy! huh. and then, kami cerita cerita. lapas tu balik tia. haha.

yesterday's stories. posting problem so gotta post it today.

argh. boring! gilaa kalii. yet, i have stories to write..
wait... sirens! huh. twice sudah bebunyi tu ari ani.
tadi pagi. abid, imran's brother, sat on this chair. the one i used to sit on. well, kerusi ni always produces farting sound. so, tadi, masa abid duduk, ia pusing. and then, bebunyi tia kerusi tu. lapas tu, ia liat aku and 'ahh? apa?' so aku macam 'what?! that wasn't me. it was your chair!'
tadi juaa, masa anak bos restaurant turun dari bilik durang, sa'id, imran's brother jua, siring ku. well between us ada kain begantung, so ia inda nampak aku la and aku inda nampak ia. ia tau pulang aku siring atu. but, aku inda tau ia siring ku. then, anak bos tu angkat tangan arah sa'id. since aku inda tau ia siring ku, aku angkat tangan la jua. then anak bos atu buat sign bukan, and ia tunjuk siring ku. lapastu ada tia sa'id melintas. i was so sober. macam if i was wearing make up tabal tabal, conform ratak tu pasal over malu. gila kali. ani, ada anak bos tu melintas, aku... apa lagi, inda la mau tulih arah ia. haha. sober weng! asi asi kan membalas. huh.
today jua, aku lupa minta duit arah my dad. so, aku kelaparan la! huhu. gurrrr.. bebunyi jua la parut, menahan lapar. haha.
and also masa pagi, ada this customer, ia bali baju. and harga baju tu less than $30 la. tapi, dibayarnya pakai $100. awal pagi kali ahh. yata abid paksa meruah beg kan cari duit $5 and $1. lapastu, ia cakap 'bah ehh. jangan lambat!' so aku macam 'siapa menyuruh kita makai duit $100.' annoying bah.

misspelled words

ohh. gosh. i've read all the posts I posted arah blog ani. and omg! banyak error guys. means.. banyak words salah. gilaa kalii. and im kinda lazy kan fix every error. so paham paham la mun ada yang bida ejaan nya tu. f.y.i, im not brilliant. haha. apakan.

salary, salary & salary!

yey! inda batah lagi terima guys! i mean, my dad.. gosh. i need to buy all sorts of barang. start with camera! haha. a must have. but, yang biasa la saja. snap shot. face detector and water proof. wahaha. can i have it? and then, if cukup rezeki, 'bah~ aku mau handphone sama line baru.. please... um laptop bulih ka jua?' haha. demanding. gilaaa kalii!

This boring day

Today is a super boring day. i'm so sleepy. telintuk lintuk jua ku ni. ergh. yesterday, balik kraja, masa sampai rumah. Makan tarus tidur. haha. means inda mandi! message pun pukul 3 lalu baru balas. gilaaaa kaliii.
Today, customers banyak juala. and each one of them tanya the super common question. 'brapa lama kamu sini laii?' so aku keluarkan la kata kata power ku. haha. 'InsyaAllah, mun rezeki banyak, makin lama la sini. mun inda, cari lagi tampat lain.... kita kan bali baju ani bu?' hahaha. dorn! sober bah ku.

Another boring day.

argh. boring! gila kalii. huh. i woke up 'pretty' late. then, masa arrived disini, sunyi weng! Super sunyi. kurrr kurrr. sleepy. but can't sleep. headache wa ulehnya. gosh. i need red bull! haha. seriously.. just now ada this posh customer. acting like shes all that. dude. thats lame! with eewy style and everything. menyusahkan wa urang cematu atu. suruh buka kain dalam plastic. tapi, inda dibalinya. ngalih wa ku kan melipat balik!! ehh. mengapakan ni?! huh. i am soooo makan gaji! hahah. for over 1hour, i've been sitting arah kerusi ani. gurrr. lapar ku bah. i wanna go home.
cant wait till tomorrow. HE<333!

some nonsense i tend to wrote after 1hour being hyper!

ohh TIDAKKKK! today is supposed to be day off since ada Maulud Nabi. but due to kesamakan booth tu, i have to keraja today. NO HALF DAY! God! ngalih wa. panas lagi. gilaa kalii. huhuhu. sandi ehh. urang lain cuti. diri, keraja! ergh. tadi, ada this one SHETUPID budak. her mom asked mana assistant booth atu. and that kid shouted 'TU!' sambil menuding jarinya yang kuruuuuus berabis atu. and then aku cakap la 'APA?!' and then ia sober macam 'omg. pikir ku urang luar. rupanya local. sober ku eh!' and ia jaling jaling. kureng ajar tu weng! ada lagi this one time ia panggil mamanya cemani 'ma!' tapi inda kana layan then ia cakap 'uii!' arah mamanya. gila. kureng ajar tu. sasak ku. macam 'I wanna punch her sorry ass!' iskh. you know, orang yang usulnya kaya, everytime melintas, they give me the 'im rich. you. POOR!' look. sasak jua ku tu. ergh. tapi, bila harga carpet $130, atu pun ia cakap mahal! gila ku eh. but, tadi, he <333 was being nice arah aku. hahh. gila!

TIDAKKKKK! boredom strikes!

argh. im bored like hell, dude! super bored. nothing to do. still got 8hours. ergh. stress wa duduk like a dumb ni! macam.. 'ignore me, im a living doll!' huh. and yang tawar menawar supaya harga murah jadi lagi murah tu, annoying hantap tu ahh. iskh. but just now, imran was talking to his friend asking for gatah. i was near him. but i thought he was asking me. so i was like asi asi menjawab 'aah? antah. nada kali. um nada tah tu ehh. ahh awu. banar. nada!' and he looked at me like 'are you talking to yourself? O.o' and i was sober. so so so sober. rasa kan ku tampal muaku sama kain. and i laughed sorang diri macam kana histeria. gosh. sandi wa rasanya. gila. boring ehh.
diaaaa nada mcl. huh. conform aher bangun tu. boring boring!

Today's story

Now, im on my way to somewhere near lumut. WORKING! Im a bit late today since I work up pretty late. Gosh! boring. boring. boring. Panas lagi tu mun tengahari. gila! balik lagi malam. huh. For a moment, i thought i couldn't hang on for another weeks. I need gaji! Yet, the owner told me to sit and watch ONLY. makan gaji aku ahh. huh. kawan. kawan. kawan! huhu. when will imran hire another assistant? Actually, this morning, PBSM duty. tapi, since aku kraja.... inda tah dapat. dorn! sunyi ehh. huh. HE <333 inda kraja ari ani. and yesterday ia ada message. heheh.

yesterday's story

Yesterday was a super tiring day. banar! started working around 8am. and finished around 7pm. dorn! wish ada kawan. Qiraaaaaaaaaah! I need you, kawan! nada dangan ku becerita bah. ergh. like, i feel so discrimated when the owner talks with his people. I mean, their language. So i was like 'dorn. what are they talking about?' Huh. And today... still needs to wake up early. huh. can i work for half day only? xp

yesterday's magic!

Yesterday morning. I woke up pretty late so I missed doing the chores which is a pretty good thing. I pitied my mom though. Then, all of a sudden... "Dek, wake up! Imran wants you to work with him at his booth." so I was like "what Imran? what work? what booth?" huh. I was so sleepy. So I met Imran and he told me blablabla. And I'm hired. While working, HE <333 asked me for my phone number. OMG! I was so excited. And I smiled like a dumb infront of the customer. Huh. Embarrassing! After that, I went back home pretty early since I had a karate lesson. Then sensei asked me if I wanna have early grading. I've been waiting for this moment like forever! After that blablabla sensei informed who passes the grading. I passed! double grading. So did Wan and Mustaqim. Jiji passed but didn't get double. I'm happy for her though..

I was sooooooo sentimental.

this video is like soooooo sad. Cried couple of times because of this. ergh. okay okay. I mean everytime. gosh. way too sentimental for me.

Alone.

I was alone this morning. I mean afternoon. I over slept so my mom gotta leave me. Everybody was not around. Even Lucky(my cat) didn't show up when I called her. I was like 'gosh! what's going on right now? it's so..... quite.' so I went all over the house seeking for everybody. Then I noticed that no cars were around. I was on my way to my sis's room when I heard her sneezes. But then when I opened the door, nobody was there. Freaking the hell out of me. Weird. After that, I went to the toilet doing my thing. Then all of a sudden, the volume of the radio in the living room was BOOM! so loud that I freezes for a second. Dorn! it was so scary so I ran into my mom's room. Hide inside a blanket like a fool. haha. It was funny though. So I text my mom asking where she've been. Then blablabla. About 30mins after that, my mom and my sis showed up. Thank God...

it was super!

went to wasai wong kadir this morning. it was super fun and super cold. haven't been there since ages. duuh! so yea, I joined my uncles and cousins. and grandma.. siuk nyamu! the water was like sooooooooooooooo cold. shaking the hell out of my body. waterfall! waterfall! weeeeee. the route, improved and fixed. but due to the soil erosion, we faced some problems. small problems actually. iskh. siuk ehh. but too bad I didn't take any photos. lupa bah. haha.

confession! eins<333

Thanks to my BFFF for helping me dealing with this situation.
I've this super big huge crush on someone. Met him few months ago. Well, he's kinda secretive. My sister knows him pretty well. We've just started contacting each other few weeks ago. He's um err way older than me. He's nice. Likes to smile. And pretty funny sometimes. grrr. weird. and yes I really really like him. Somehow, it's kinda impossible to have him. darn it. I never ask him if he has a girlfriend. so it's obvious that I don't know and seriously, I don't wanna know.
But if I could have him, I'll be so so so grateful. I keep on saying his name over and over again. So my mom and my sis are annoyed by me. haha. can't help it. like, he is a must have in this life... if you know what I mean. gosh. he doesn't know about this. I just don't wanna spoil this friendship. haha. gila!