Happy 5th Month Anniversary.. :)

i waited for four and a half months to actually win his heart. i know that it wasn't a very long time.. but, even one day waiting, killed me inside..! and now, i am truly happy that i was with him yesterday, enjoying every second we had. i'm glad that our relationship is longer than the period of time i waited to get into this relationship. ohh, it was fun. i know that we celebrated our monthsary every month.. but yesterday, it was um, i dont know, different.. more, special.. :) i really wish we could hangout longer yesterday. uh, now, i miss you already, baby. :')

weee~

Baby, I love you.. :)

When I look into your eyes,
the world dissapears.
I forget my worries, problems,
stresses and all my fears.
Your my breath of air,
your my light of day.
When my words cluster up,
you always seem to understand what I say.
You give me reason,
to wake up tommorow and the next.
You so easily make my day,
with so little as a text.
I'm so in love with you.
I will never hurt you.
When I speak to you,
you'll always know it's true.
Well that's if it's a serious subject.
I will never raise a hand to you,
I'll raise a hand to someone else,
for messing with or hurting you.
Your my everything
and in-between.
When I look into your eyes,
it's the greatest sight I have ever seen!

in your eyes

Baby, I LOVE YOU.. :)

In your eyes I see beauty
All that is wonderful in this world
All I ever wanted
And prayed for in a girl

In your eyes I see the ocean
Such peace you bring to the sea
I see warm waters in your heart
You seem to have that effect on me

In your eyes I see the sky
Never will it rain again
I see endless sunshine from your smile
This happiness has no end

Of all the things I see in you
And the many wonders in your eyes I see
I hope to be blessed with you
To look in your eyes and always see me.

By Eddy Quinton Perret, Sr

when i'm with you, baby. :)

BABY, I LOVE YOU..! :)

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever you're not around
when i kiss you,
i still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
baby am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i want to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made..

i feel so alone tonight

ohh God. i am so so so bored right now. i mean, i don't usually feel this way. lately, i have problems controlling my emotions. like, fuck! and sometimes i'm crying over nothing..! and now, i am doing nothing. i dont even have moods to check my facebook. not even editing photos. uwaaaa~ baybeh, where are youuuuuu...?! :'(

my love for you is real, baybeh.. :)

baybeh, i can't sleep. and so, i googled some love poems and found this..! weee~ this is for you, baybeh.. :) i love you..

Sometimes at night,
When I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you,
And then ask myself "why?"

"Why do I love you?"
I think and smile,
Because I know,
The list could run on for mile.

The whisper of your voice,
The warmth of your touch,
So many little things,
Make me love you so much.

The way you support me,
Even my silly notions,
The way that you care,
And show such devotion.

The way that your kiss,
Fills me with desire,
And how you hold me,
With the warmth of a fire.

The way your eyes shine,
When you look at me,
Lost with you forever,
Is where i want to be.

The way that I feel,
When you are by my side,
A sense of completion,
And overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,
That all involve you,
The possibilities that I see,
The things that we can do.

How you finish the puzzle,
That lies inside my heart,
How deep in my soul,
You are a very important part.

I could go on for days,
Telling of what I feel,
But all you really must know is...
My love for you is real.

courtesy of Tiffany Marie

my baybeh and i

baybeh, you're probably sleeping right now. uh, i miss you. baybeh, thanks for coming yesterday. i really had a great time with you. by the way, i'll upload more photos of us next time, okay?

boohoo~

baby..! aaa, i'm bored and i'm missing you. plussss, i can't sleep. uh, when can we meet? i'm longing to see you baby..
um, since i'm kinda blank right now, let's just take this moment for me to err, confess? baby, i'm sorry if i've done anything wrong. sorry if there were some times where i over-reacted over some silly things. i never meant to be that way. well, i have problems controlling my emotion. so, thanks for understanding. thanks for willing to be there when i need you. thanks for being a shoulder for me to cry on. thanks for being such a great boyfriend. thank you for everything, baby.

bakawali

midnight- i got out to take a photo of this flower. uh, it was dark and scary. gila man..! thank goodness mom told me this one story after i finished my job. okay okay. mom told me if i waited for the flower to smell, that 'thing' will appear. like, damn..! ohoho, nasib i didn't.. if i did, i wouldn't be taking photos of the flower. so, either i'm taking photos of that thing. or me, running away! so, the flower looks like this. pretty eh?

weeee~ baybeh..!

THANK YOU for picking me up after training baby.. ohh, i missed you. it was great seeing you eventhough you may be annoyed by me because of me being hyper. but but, i enjoy looking at you laughing. okay okay. i think that's it. and and, thanks for massaging my pain legs baybeh.. weee.. bah, LONG LIVE LIVITA, BAYBEH...!!

the feelings of having you here with me is unbeatable.

THANK YOU so much baby for spending the night with me. yeah, it was great hanging out with you. i wish we can meet everyday. and me, i won't get tired of seeing you.

bud bud buddy.

weeee~ thanks for chillin' at my crib guys. and for the present, too.. :) it meant a lot to me. and and and, for the photos.. thank you, thank you, thank you..!

my wishes

others made their wishes on their birthday.. so i want too.
well, i dont mind if some of my wishes wont come true. but i need at least some people trying to make it come true. feel me?
so, my wishes are....
to be able to meet grandpa even if it's just for a second.
to celebrate my birthday with my family and friends. and ohh ohh, with my baby.
i wish my boyfriend and i will always be this happy.
i wish my pa would remember that today is my birthday.
and i wish that everyday is my birthday so people wouldn't forget me after today becomes yesterday..

they even sang for me.. :')

thank you, thank you, thank you so much..
some wrote poems,
some sang a song,
some pray for me,
how could i ever thank you guys? it means a lot to me. it really does..

hari raya

photos from raya. duhh, sorry. i know that it's already too late to actually still enjoying raya.. but, i totally forgot about posting these photos..


every raya, we take photos of us. we were complete.. now, a piece of us is gone. but still, we kinda had a blast right?

there, uda's family, pawang's family, amit's family, angah's family and my family.

foto foto foto

yeah, when boredom strikes! no no, cancel that out.. i mean, when i feel like SHOWING OFF.. haha. yeah, this is what i've been doing for the past 10 hours.. no, not just three of this.. there's more! more! more! but um, i don't feel like uploading those photos.. so, these are all that i can upload.. :)

happy birthday.

yes, today is the day. my 17th birthday.. thanks to those who greeted me.. and ohh ohh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUS!
baby, thanks..! and i love you. :)

ini foto kita bersama.. :)

i love love love you, baby.. :)

bipolar

how can i be happy while i am sad?
how can i be sad while i am happy?
how can i live my life like this?
this is all been too difficult for me to go through.
my life with its ups and downs.
so am i. up and down...
up and down...
up and down...

everyday is sunday

every morning i wake up, i open my eyes wide.
still lying on my bed.
thinking of what would happen today.
thinking if i made the right decision to wake up this early.
wondering if he misses me, cause' i miss him.
wondering if he will text me, cause' i need him.
i wish today is better than yesterday. and tomorrow will be better than today.
and the next day.. and the next day..
but sometimes, they're just hopes.
my day is always like this. never too happy. never too sad.
and me, just the same.
trying to keep it low when i'm too happy cause' i don't wanna end my day with crying, regretting what i've done.
trying to at least be a little happy when i'm too sad cause' i don't wanna end my day with blaming my life for being too cruel with me.
so i guess this won't change...

this will never be perfect

what i missed the most? there, right in the middle, we're missing one person... GRANDPA. sob sob. we all felt the emptiness.. we couldn't fill it. there is no replacement. uh, i hate this feeling. the feelings of abandonment. so i hate celebrating any function.

every second we spent together.

baby, thanks for spending nearly most of your time with me. it meant a lot to me. holding your hand and stuff, i wish i'd never let you go home. seeing you laugh, ohh it made me more happy. baby, i love you so much. thank you, thank you, thank you so much for everything. :)

he who i love the most.

i wandered around, trying to find out who i really am.
i looked at my reflection, "why am i smiling?"
it's weird, cause' i felt sad.
ohh, this mask i'm wearing.
i wanted to take it off. but why can't i?
i'm crying on the inside but smiling on the outside.
my eyes glanced over a person standing next to me.
he smiled at me, knowing that mine is fake.
he held my hand, thinking that he could fix me.
but he couldn't. i gave up.
i blamed him for giving me false hope.
he left, now, thinking he made everything worst.
but i felt so empty without him trying to cheer me up.
i wanted to laugh. i just can't.
i begged him to come back and i swore to make everything work.
i knew he wouldn't give up on me.
he stays right by my side, cheering me up.
and i realised that i'm falling in love with him.
ohh he fixed me.
he who cheers me.
he who loves me back.
he who i miss the most.
he who promised to stand by my side.
he who is now my soulmate.
he is one in a million.
baby, i'm lucky to have you in my life.

wahai teman teman ku..

ohh, guys... i missed you. and im happy that we met on sunday. everybody have changed huh? qirah, najib, faiz, nana, apis, mus, rusydi, bunny, majidah, wardah, atai and afi... ohmigod.. membesar sudah kamu ehh~ :) i hope we can meet soon.

baby, i love you.

happy belated four months anniversary baby.. and yeah, it was on 27th. but the connection was too slow. ergh, so i couldnt update my blog.