ladybug and strawberry

photos of the day...

so, my adik and i had some kind of 'outing' this evening. and took lots of photos. so, these two are the photos of the day.. :) will upload more soon..

some random midnight story...

hi guys.. :)

quiet night, isnt it? soo soo dull, aahhh.. anyway, i made french tip on my nails.. too bad its kinda smudgy.. sally hansen has the best nailpolish eveeeeerrr.. haha. it lasts up to 10 days.. seriously guys..

by the way, my mom wants to visit um, lets just say my mom wants to visit my dad, okay? so, yea, my mom wants to visit my dad this friday (tomorrow).. i am not excited.. :( i told my mom that im not ready to visit dad.. well, mom understands. but someday, i need to get over it.. its just that right now is not a right time for me to do that... i dont wanna end up crying hysterically.. i love my dad so much that i dont wanna face the reality.. i might come but, i dont know.. im planning on making my baby come with me if im going to visit dad tomorrow. life is so complicated.. :/ and everything we do reminds us of dad.. do you have any idea how mentally painful is that.... im not saying that its a burden, no no no.. its just hard for us to move on if each and every memories we had keep on popping in our mind.. you want an honest answer? i dont think ive accepted the fact that im an orphan.. and the old man i mentioned on my older post, i dont know why i cant forget him.. his face, that disgusting look on his face, it stucks on my head.. i shouldve seen it coming... i shouldve seen it coming... i shouldve seen it coming... I SHOULDVE SEEN IT COMING... I SHOULDVE SEEN IT COMING...!!!!!

That old bastard... old old bastard... if i were to see you again, ...........................................................
I hope youre safe, old man..

okay guys.. im done.. im officially sick after talking about that old dickface... :s

i stand my ground for babah...

Salam babah..

I wonder how've you been... Im so sorry aku nada lawat babah.. 'Aku takut' is all I can say. Sometimes, aku lupa babah inda balik lagi.. I keep hearing your voice. I keep remembering the old times.. And I keep telling myself that this is REALITY.. Damn, it hurts. Honestly, I don't know why lately aku tend to avoid orang yang tend to make friends with me.. And everytime durang tanya pasal my family, I wish I can run from it.. I dont want mami to see me crying over you, babah... But I know mami feels the same way like I do.. There are so many things I wanna do with you in it.. Can I pretend like you're still around bahh? I wish to see you, sekali saja kalau bullih... I wanna tell you how much aku sayang babah...

Babah, look after me, will ya? We will always LOVE you babah...

im an alien

so, hi guys.. its kinda slow today. and i dont know why i always babble when i feel so slow..

anyway, katy perry's E.T is so cool..! not like crazily cool.. for me its just wicked..!! and i love her blue purple make up in the vid. makes me wanna put on a make up... ohh, and a cover for that song is awesome.. its by Tyler Ward.. And here's the link..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ylyBq1OFaY



by the way, i dont really know what to write. so, i think this is it..

bye and salam.. :)

That seriously pisses me off...

Today i went shopping with my mom and cousins aaand sisters. But thats another story.. What im about to tell you is kinda lame...? o.o

Anyway, my sis and i went to this one shop at the mall. And as usual, a salesgirl will follow you around, right? And then this one bitch, she followed us around while my sis and i go through the whole lame clothing line. After that, she went to her friends and her friends were like one step closer to us.. that bitch went on mengusut macam apa saying 'ehh, ngalih jua ku pusing pusing ani ehh..! macam kana bawa meround bah..!' That moment, i was like 'she didnt just say that..' but she did.. and not to mentioned, ia cakap basar basar.. what?? so we could hear you?? bukan atu saja, she also ketawa macam mengucap.. like, one of her friends tanya, 'yang mana satu kan?' and ia seemed to be bagi signal pakai mata pointing arah my sis.. and then kawannya said 'bah, cuba kau tunjukkan dapan dapan' lapastu, that B pose..! macam, you know that pose where you bend your body like seducing people, right? (not that aku pernah cuba) but she actually did that infront of aku and kaka ku. That was rude.. so rude that i felt like punching her boobs. (it rhymes, i know) lapastu ketawa katawa.. macam, whats your point?? kalau ganya kan show off yang diri atu murah, inda payah dapan kami, okay?

Thats the thing with teenage yang cematu yang ngam tekana kraja cematu... What the HELL people?? Seriously, we both know yang bila dapan lelaki, kamu lanji..! damn it..! she ruined my day.. So the whole time i was there, aku balik balik sindir ia.. I even said yang ia LAME..! but as usual, binibini cematu manatau malu..

Im not saying that im better than her. Im saying that im much much more better than her.. Just kidding guys.. :D BUT YOU KNOW ITS TRUE.....!!

To the girl, if you happened to read this.. Well, i wanna say few things to you..


Dear girl,

I am offended with what you did to us this evening.. I didnt come to your place of work just to see you bitch around. And if you really wanted to bitch around, then bitch somewhere else where I cant see you.. In your room, perhaps? Or in the toilet? Kitchen? Garage? Storage area? Wastage area? (okay, knock it off..!) And take off that lame bandana.. That thing is so 20 years ago.. Wait, lets just make it 10 years ago.. Honestly, I feel sorry for you. I was once a salesgirl, so, i understand youre frustration.. So listen to me, when some people dont wanna purchase anything from your store, dont take it out on innocent people like me.. If youre fed up with it, then quit your job and get a real life, okay? If you still wanna work there but too lazy to follow around when there are customers, cut your legs off.. I'd be happy to do it for you. anyway, i dont wanna babble too much.. So, i just hope youre safe.. And if you tend to hate my words, Ive got a much better one for you.. Eat up all the things Ive said to you so that you know whats good and bad for you.. Keep it in your mind, kid..!


So, thats all for tonight.. Salam guys and love ya.. (NOT)

yea, and im like WOW....

So, this is going to be some random rants. or not.. but anyways, sometimes i feel like making a vlog.. but i totally think that its NOT a very good idea.

recently, ive been kinda bad. well, not badly bad.. but like, bad. you know what i mean? so, theres this video of someone doing something that some people doesnt, (or dont?) like. and of course, thats how i got the idea for being bad.... (?) is my english right? okay, this is awkward.. um, so, after watching this vid, i was like 'this person is f*cked up..!' i instantly hate this person and i wrote a comment. after a while, my comment became one of the top comment.. so, another person wrote a comment telling those who hates this person to back of and to leave this person alone.. ironic, i know.. and i replied that person's comment. we were kinda like fighting and then maybe that person accidentally replied it to a wrong person.. so i stopped... and then i saw another video of the f*cked up person.. and this time i was like 'whadda hell??' and i wrote another comment.. honestly, i feel sorry for this person.. but i hate it... i hate this person so much that now, i dont feel sorry for this person... soooo, is it bad for me to hate this person if this person is so annoying. and what this person said in all of the videos are annoyingly irritating..... do you know what i mean guys?

and last few days, i was sent to the emergency after i passed out at my work.. err place of work? i dont know guys.. im kinda lost these days.. that explains why im being hyper for no reason and also lost for words.. also for no reason at all. gosh, i think i better stop.. eventhough i dont feel like stopping. argh... i cant stop... okay, i'll stop now.. in 3... 2... 1... Bye and Salam.....

tick tock tick tock

Today is so friggin slow.. The business is slow. The people are slow. I am slow... So boring.. I desperately need my baby.. :'( baby, i need you.. I need you so bad.. Aah, boredom~

At times like this, id be sleeping inside my sleeping bag. Ive been yawning for way too many times that now i dont know how to close my mouth.

Home, home, home.. Uh, batah ehh..!