This feeling

For a moment, I think I know exactly what 'my life's empty' means. Leaving in my own head. As if I lost those I Love. I felt it before. Abandonment. This world. Bright on the outside. But dull in the inside. So am I. Faking it won't help 'cause I know I can't do this forever. Seeing things I wanna see. Yes. Makes me happy though. But it's just for a few second. Crying over some unforgetable memories. HAH! Nobody gives a damn. It's pathetic. This heart.. needs something to cover this big hole inside it. But why?! This world seems to take a piece of me. Every single time. 'living life to the fullest' I still can't figure out what it means. But it sure does sound um good.