i love twilight and im lame

i've just watched the twilight saga:new moon yesterday. i know, ketinggalan. aku miss liat arah movie aruatuuuuu. but anyway, i love twilight but not that desperate. i mean, how i wish my role and my life in this world would be as sweet as bella's and edwards's. hoho. the surrounding. the sorrow and magical place. hooyeah.. i do believe in fairy tales.

aku suka, aku suka, aku suka. some of you must be wondering how lame can i be... well guys, this is my life and this medicine is already taking control of my soul. aku mengantuk and i cant get over the fact that vampires dont exist.. nonsense..! bah, tidur dulu. taaaaa..

that's freaking rude, woman..!

okay, last tuesday i went to the hospital. bahagian emergency since atu patang sudah. and, aku batuk aaand selesma. so i kinda need ubat. i waited about 5 minutes sampai kana panggil kedalam and then bla bla bla. kana suruh tunggu arah tampat corner dakat bilik doctor aa. then, tunggu lagi.. batah like fuck..! padahal time atu aku and my niece saja yang kan becheck. decades lapastu barutah datang doctor binibini indian anii. and im not trying to be some kind of racist. so, sambung balik.. um,and now, barutah turn ku. so, aku bagitau laa yang i have a flu and batuk sama having difficulties breathing since idungku tesumbat. lapastu ya check check macam urang malas. then bagi list ubat. so aku tanya cemani 'um, ani include ubat supaya inda tesumbat idung ka ni?' then, macam urang buduh ya menjawab 'i already give you the syrup, thats enough!!' and i was like, 'shit, kasar betina ani menjawab!!' okay, so doctor, i dont have guts kan cakap in front of your face masa atu. probably because i wasnt felling very weel. and im sick enough meliat muka mu. aku takut muntah dapan kau saja. sooooo, i just want you to know that, it would be my pleasure to go to other hospital if kau malas macam baie sudah kan layan pesakit. mmkay? you couldve said that kau malas. just dont treat us, the commoners macam urang minta sedakah okay??!! im sick at a point where im about to go BOOM sudah.. so i dont need you to make it worst.. kay?

dulu pun pernah ku becheck and tekana kau. you were rude jua at that time. and dont think youre good enough to be part of the brunei people. segala kesusahan mu ya jua kana tanggung uleh brunei govn. so dont try to act like martabat mu tinggi dari kami..

ohh, shit.. sorry for my rudeness, sorry for my words and everthing. tapi, i just cant stand it okay..

Happy birthday, lil sis.

i know this is common. but im sorry pasal nada hadiah. anyway, happy birthday..

aand, ani gambar lama. sama aku bida. hoooo.

Happy 11 Monthsary Baby~

Hoorey..! thanks for spending you time with me yesterday. eventhough tani dinner saja. but i still rasa as if we were celebrating it. :) I love you..

perhaps

Everything on the net are getting more and more complicated. Its annoying and maybe, im going to shut everything down.. no hotmail account. no blog. no everything. 100% free from the net. ehh, ngam ka tu..? sounds like im making ad for something from it..

And i am absolutely fucked up. uh, i lost my all my sijil antah kemana. and then, dock ipod pun ilang.. why is it bila ku beguna banar, ilang tia. like, vanish tarus. macam, i was iski sudah isi borang buruh and everything. tau tau, sijil nada. iskh.. im having another migrain just because of thinking pasal my missing stuffs....

please, bring my life back.. bring everything back..

migraine peut vous tuer..!!

uh, i cant sleep. i had migrain yesterday.. My eyes and head hurt like hell. I felt a great pressure as if my brain and eyeballs are about to burst. Thank goodness i ate a painkiller. The strong one and im not kidding. I cant even hold a spoon after the effect takes place.. and i cant open my eyes. So i spent pretty much the whole day lying on my bed in a half awake half asleep condition..

edited photo

ohh lame bunyinya.. but anyway, aku mau juaa pakai marker merah arah bibir.. :)



originally black and white photo.. so i didnt apply any makeup on my face. if i did, it would be uglier than this. so be thankful that you only get to see my face this ugly..

humph

ohh, its so gloomy this evening since its raining. yet, its a perfect time to sleep.. hoho, mengantuk ku ulehnya. i wanted to sleep. but i gotta get ready for training later.. woah, malas datang ehh. ani baru MALAS namanya. inda mau grading and so on.. seriously, i almost fed up masa kana complain tu. cant you see that im sweating myself trying to be better?? and you stated that im NOT trying?? if i really am not trying, i wouldnt come every week. i wouldnt get frustrated for every false moves i made. do you really have to bring me down when you expect me to be better just like those so called A plus kids? you cant change me.. you cant.. you really cant.. lets just put a fullstop here, okay? its sickening enough to be around people like you. tuuuut tuuuut tuuuuuuttttxxggghhhzzz zZz zZz krooh krooh krooh...

The Type Of Friends I Would Never Betray

Frankly speaking, I'm sincere when it comes to friendship. I'm not the friendly annoying person who labels everybody as my best buddies. No no, that is so not me. I may get along with one person, but we never know when a person would betray us.

Thank goodness my best buddies are consist of crack heads, no bimbo wannabe, no sluts and whores aaaand they are who they are. I know that each person has an alter ego. And I may not know what their alter ego look like. But then, I'm just glad we get along for almost 5 years. yakaa? But anyway, more than a year is fine, right? Better than backstabbers I've known almost for 15 years..

Guys, I hope that this thing we have wont be another not-so-important friendship since each and everyone of us are going on different roads as we are pursuing our own dreams..

NO TITLE..

First,

Im having my training session tadi and it didnt turn out very well. Im offending by something that someone had said to me. Infront of my face in an open space where i bet every single person heard of it. uh, you're full of shit..! You made me look pathetic. And everybody seemed to give me a 'sorry' treatment..

Thanks baby for picking me up and being there when im down.. Eventhough I acted as if the training went really well..



And second,

I'm pretty excited about having card buruh.. hoo yeah.. inda ku tahan beparam dirumah saja ni.. i know awal awal ani saja ku iski and nanti im pretty sure that i would wanna have these lonely boring days.. anyway, I need to start to kumpul duit.. I so need a life..

Anyway, dudu. mau tidur dulu..

hoo yeah

How sad can I be?

Seeing other people punya love posts.. ohh rindu kuu. wait, kenapa ku beranti buat love posts?? ohh, awu, pasal atu, lupa ku.. pfft.


Baby, thanks for hangin out with me tadi. liat movie and dinner samasama. I heart you so much, sayang.. Too bad you didnt stay longer lapas antar balik tadii.. But I really had good times with you..

Its funny bila ingat cemana bulih I had a crush on you. weee, it was unexpected ohh? Like, banarbanar unexpected. Gosh.. But anyway, I love you wholeheartedly.. :)








BOWH, ADA ORANG JEALOUS NIIIIIIIII~ KAN?

aaaa chooo..!

Watched Clash Of The Titans tadi..! siiuk.. But lately, im surrounded by Greek mythology.. I mean, God Of War.. Percy Jackson And The Lightning Thief.. This one andd satu lagi inda ku ingat.. Ohh man..

By the way, ai en es o em en ai a...! seriously.. I've been awake for more than 24 hours. and i think kan sebulan kali sudah aku aher saja tiduuurr.. hoho. frustrating..

And and.. the population of people who hate me, betambah laaagi.. hahh..! anu, anak ani cakap belakang belakang.. He's a friend of friend of someone I've known for my whole life.. Amazingly, this kid described me in one word.. 'sekalur'..

Well I got something for ya dickface..! being sekalur isn't bad. But being a fucking judgmental is.. Kira pasal rambut ku 'perang' and kuku ku warna brown, sekalur laa tuu? aah, immature.. alum sunat kali niii????

Rasaku, kau yang pakai baju tabal time ke komplex atu yang sekalur. inda jua ada aircond kali ehh arah complex tu. *calm down moy* uh, banar banar waa. sasak ku orang palui macam kau. pindik akal. in your eyes, maybe i look pretty gauk. but you dont know me..

You think you're in a position to judge me, kiddo?! Read this carefully, I've met you and I've known you before kau kenal aku. And you dont even know my name.. duhh, how stupid can you be, arsehole?

I've seen you around, hangin out with your so-called samseng friend. tantang tantang orang. Kira aku takut laa tuu? okay, UUUUUUUUUUUUUUU, im scared..! if thats what you want me to say.

Ehh, shit kau ani ehh. Inda perindungan mu mengajar kali suruh jaga mulut bisai bisai. ani, cam baie waaaa kau aa. *dont ask me ada ka nada perindungan ku megajar supaya jangan cussing.. actually ada, but then, i have my own limit waaa*

Ehh awu. I know the next part will sound um, sekalur.. but, ku dangar, family mu meliara jin?! HAHA..! I was like, 'ohh, pasal nya meliara jin atu tah ya berani judge orang. if orang marah, sihir saja. sanang, abis cerita' TAPI, inda mengasi tuu lai jin mu arah ku... I DARE YOU, SHITFACE..!

anak damit macam kau ani tah mudah gets on my nerves.. *in some cases, orang basar pun adaaaa*

aaaaaaaa, sabar moy.. fuuh.. take a deep breath............................. and sambung...!

Cemani lai, ngalih sudah ku waa melayan orang babal macam kau ani. inda abis abis kan sakit ati arah aku. Tapii, if inda puas ati, i really really recommend you to confront me. Be a REAL man and say it in front of my face. Ani belakang belakang.. tapi label diri sendiri as the coolest person arah smso.. Orang cool nada membali pop ice.. and nada pakai seluar tingkai time form 1. BOO, MALUUUU..!

AGAIN, BERAPA KALI LAGI KU KAN MEMBAGI TAU.. NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, I WILL ALWAYS WIN..!

So, it would be much much much much much much much much much much better if you just leave me and my sekalurness alone, okay? need i say more?????????