sorry.

sorry guys for the short term disappearance. but, i will post stories that would've been on my blog if it wasn't because of the stupid connection..

do you remember this?

the moment i fell from the chair in front of deputy principle's office. ohh, for some reason, i remember the incident. after all, im sitting on the same chair. not at the same exact spot though. aaah, i laughed so hard that i wanted to cry. you guys did. and everytime we passed through the chair and the office, we giggle. ohh, i miss you guys! :')

i feel so empty

im in an unknown mood. im emotionless. i couldnt think of a thing. i cant sleep and im worrying about nothing. wait, ohh it rhymes! baby, baby, where are you? are you asleep? i feel ignored at times like this. what can make you awake? i need you to not to sleep. be with me, please! be by my side. i need you here with me. you're fading from my sight. why is that? im refreshing my memory so i could see you clearly. but turned out the other way around.. its still early, i might still be able to find you back but this world, its spinning round and round.. i couldnt do it, im giving up. now i need you to find me back.. keep me with you at all times so i know that you have my back. let me hold you tight so i know that you arent trying to escape behind my back. dont make me do silly things. ohh you know i would.. wait, what am i talking about? ohh again, i feel so empty. skip skip skip. i love you, baby!

this heart..

"this heart, it keeps more secret than my mind could ever remember.. you think you know me? no! no one does. im not even sure if i know myself. after all, being myself could be the last thing i wanted to be. i didnt ask for all of these to be here. doubt, its complicating.. why are you even here? go away. shoo! you never make me feel good. just let me be with my heart. the one that holds all the pain while i fake my smile, my story, everything! ohh im so good at it that now i think im just another faker who wants to be liked by everybody. now that its revealed, is there any chance you could welcome me with your wide arm? we'll start everything over with only you and me.."

aaaand this has nothing to do with my current situation. :) *i lied*

good times yesterday.

aizam ohh aizam. thanks for coming yesterday. and, thanks to zul for joining us. eventhough i didnt offer you a warm welcome. still awkward eh? but, the chitchat, well, to be continued next time we meet, okay? thanks guys! :)