this will never be perfect

what i missed the most? there, right in the middle, we're missing one person... GRANDPA. sob sob. we all felt the emptiness.. we couldn't fill it. there is no replacement. uh, i hate this feeling. the feelings of abandonment. so i hate celebrating any function.

every second we spent together.

baby, thanks for spending nearly most of your time with me. it meant a lot to me. holding your hand and stuff, i wish i'd never let you go home. seeing you laugh, ohh it made me more happy. baby, i love you so much. thank you, thank you, thank you so much for everything. :)

he who i love the most.

i wandered around, trying to find out who i really am.
i looked at my reflection, "why am i smiling?"
it's weird, cause' i felt sad.
ohh, this mask i'm wearing.
i wanted to take it off. but why can't i?
i'm crying on the inside but smiling on the outside.
my eyes glanced over a person standing next to me.
he smiled at me, knowing that mine is fake.
he held my hand, thinking that he could fix me.
but he couldn't. i gave up.
i blamed him for giving me false hope.
he left, now, thinking he made everything worst.
but i felt so empty without him trying to cheer me up.
i wanted to laugh. i just can't.
i begged him to come back and i swore to make everything work.
i knew he wouldn't give up on me.
he stays right by my side, cheering me up.
and i realised that i'm falling in love with him.
ohh he fixed me.
he who cheers me.
he who loves me back.
he who i miss the most.
he who promised to stand by my side.
he who is now my soulmate.
he is one in a million.
baby, i'm lucky to have you in my life.

wahai teman teman ku..

ohh, guys... i missed you. and im happy that we met on sunday. everybody have changed huh? qirah, najib, faiz, nana, apis, mus, rusydi, bunny, majidah, wardah, atai and afi... ohmigod.. membesar sudah kamu ehh~ :) i hope we can meet soon.

baby, i love you.

happy belated four months anniversary baby.. and yeah, it was on 27th. but the connection was too slow. ergh, so i couldnt update my blog.