Old bitch gone wild..

And so the title says it all. The old man from my previous post went nuts about money, calling and threatening us like a mother'F'ing bitch..!

Yea, ia cakap kan sembayang hajat supaya kami anak beranak mati accident.. Well, listen FUCKER, daripada kau minta hajat cematu, baik pulang kau minta supaya lakas kaya, inda jua kau macam urang sial cari duit. And ya cakap yang babah datang dalam mimpinya suruh ia minta duit arah kami.. And I was like 'HAHA, KAN MATI BUNYINYA..!!' how about this, AKU MIMPI BABAH BALIK, ADA YA BALIKKK??!!! Urang tua CELAKA..!! SADANG SADANG tah kau kan mengacau kami, banartah.. JANGAN BUAT THINGS JADI WORST..! You wont like it, caya tah..

Kau becakap pasal syurga neraka, ADA KAU PIKIR APA DUSANYA MENDUAKAN TUHAN?? sampai kau bawa durang anak mu mencari mama ku.. KENAPA?? Inda kau tekabir kan menguruskan sendiri?? Now kau probably sadar yang kau tua sudah, and inda mampu kan datang sini sendiri, becakap sendiri dapan dapan.. Sudah kami highlight salah mu, gagap gagap kau menjawab, sial..!!

Yang paling PALUI, ia suruh kami bagi ya duit as soon as kami ada duit.. HELLO, we've been starving for nearly 2 months.. Kau pun tau.. Tapi, since hati mu lagi hina dari hati binatang, i didnt expect kau kan merati. Babal kau aa..

Did I mention yang everytime kau call, aku dapat rasa this rotten taste in my mouth.. And then aku realise, its you, kau yang buaat aku rasa cematu.. You, rotten dog shit..! youre that disgusting..

THIS TIME, i'll make kau nangis darah, melutut, minta maaf arah mami ku....

YOU, yea YOU, tell him to just SHUT THE FUCK UP.. We both know who you are, whos your family.. Dont tell me kau indakan bagitau ia just because kau kan jaga atinya.. I'd be laughing my ass off kalau atu jawapan mu. I have to jaga ati mami ku yang urang tua atu sakitkan.. Nah, bandingkan tia..

Everyday, I have to fight with the fact yang ati kami pun ikut sakit ulehnya. I have to pretend like everythings okay just so my mom bulih senyum.. And the hardest part is that i have to AVOID every conversation yang ada kana mengana pasal duit when the truth is that kami satu sen pun nada.. Happy kau ka meliat kami cematu, ohh right, kau rotten shit jua, pfft, as if kau ada perasaan..

Uh, banar... No matter berapa post pun ku buat, sampai bila bila pun inda ku kan puas ati.. I personally mau liat kau rasa apa babah rasa before everything happened..


Mudahan jua, all the bad things kau doakan kami atu, tebalik arah mu. Tau tah kau apa rasanya...!!

Day by day, every fault kau buat, I'll reveal bit by bit pasal kau.. I dont care about anything.. Bukan ku inda tau kau siapa. Semua jua orang kenal kau disini ni.. Beside, kami nada papa kan dirugikan.. semua tu salah mu.. Lapastu, I'll enjoy meliat idup mu ancur with hummiliation.. sama macam kau enjoy meliat idup kami nada babah..

It is meant to be...

The pressure makes us stronger.

The struggle makes us hunger.

The hard lessons make a difference, and the difference makes it worth it....

What I missed the most

My Baby~




and my monkeys..

love letter

shed a tear and sing for me

I gotta say, its good when we have someone whos willing to listen to every word we say.. Then again, those kind of people, they're very hard to find.. SERIOUSLY..!

and when it rains......

I used to like it when its raining during the day.. It gave me this warmness.. Now, when it rains during the day, i feel sick.. As if the dark sky would crush me..

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I miss you, babah..

If youre here, I would ask you,

how are you bahh?

hows your day?

are you feeling well right now?

do you miss kami?

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where are you now?

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our life masani, not as great as before. now, sorang sorang kecarian..

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Im sorry aku nada lawat babah.. Its not that I dont want to. Im just not ready. I dont wanna cry bila disana. I know you would be upset too if I cry... Next time, InsyaAllah, aku baca yaasin untuk babah.. One day, when im ready to face the world...

I still wonder,why do I feel this way.. Forgive me for all my sins arah babah.. I know I wasnt an excellent daughter.. Im not saying that I am, now.. But I feel like I am improving..

I never had a chance to know you well, and you never had a chance to know me well.. But I know youre a good father..

Now, sudah 1 month and 2 days since you were gone...

WE LOVE YOU, BABAH..