if that's the way how life should be.

i'm not quite sure what i wanna talk about. it's just that, i watched several movies that highlighted the real fact about this life. i bet you know these movies... 'romeo and juliet' 'titanic' 'becoming jane' 'the pride and prejudice' . each movies ended with happy endings in sad endings. it's the love life that i'm talking about. they were the most sweet things i've ever seen. i've always like that kind of stories. it's not always happy, but it's not always sad either. aah, it's just perfect..

how grateful i am to have him in my life. i love you, eins.

eins, eins, eins. do you know how much i LOVE(i rarely use this word) you? you're a part of me now. i won't let you go. not that easy. i'm playing a good girlfriend role but i'm so sorry that you have to live with the imperfect me. i'm not trying to be perfect. i never were. i just hope that you like the real me. i know you don't really know me. i'm not hiding anything. just let me know if you wanna know facts about me. then i'll let you know everything. and i mean, EVERYTHING. i was a naive little girl. now i'm a grown up. i'm missing you every second, honey. i'll hold this relationship as long as i can. and as long as you want me to. i need you to be right here with me. you're different from everybody i know. that what makes you special. your smile always makes me feel happy. and with you in my life, it makes me feel like i'm the luckiest girl in this whole universe. i don't want this feelings to fade away. as long as you're with me, i'll make sure you won't regret the desicions you made. i love you, eins.

metal for soul. yet, i still know who i am.

ya know, i know this guy who labels me as poser just because i listen to some metal songs and i'm wearing all black. i love black. first, because black hides my FLAPS! second, black suits my skin tone. i just don't get it why people hate me for that. well, let me tell you this, YOU, THE ONE WHO LABELS YOURSELF AS METAL AND GOTHIC AND EMO AND PUNK, JUST BACK OFF OKAY. MY STANDARD IS WAY TOO HIGH FOR A SHITFACE LIKE YOU TO JUDGE. IF I NEVER MESS WITH YOUR LIFE, DON'T MESS WITH MINE COZ I MIGHT MESS YOURS TWICE AS BAD. and yes, i wear ladies-wear too, and so what?! i don't do 'show-off' okay. actually, in this case, you're the poser. dressing up with too much shit. way too much. can't you dress like normal people do? ohh, i forgot, you're just craving for my attention right?yes, you did it. you got all my attentions. yet, you still look like a pile of shit. enough okay. just get out of my life. and let me mind my own business.

the new me

i've changed actually. and i have a new boyfriend.. the one i wrote about months ago.. eins. ring a bell? i'm happy with him and i really hope that he'll be my last boyfriend. like, i wanna have a serious relationship.. you feel me guys? anyway, i think that's it.

sorry

i've been AWAY for ages due to lacking of ideas on what topic to talk about.